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I know it's been a while. I know you've been waiting months and months for chapter 12. I know I know I know. I'm disgusted with myself, really I am.
And yet, I have to tell you, I'm afraid you might just to get used to it.
First o' all, I yam what I yam: a moody writer. I could write nine pages in one day, or one page in nine weeks. It just depends on the direction my creative juices happen to be flowing, or whatever. I dunno why I work this way; I just do. Take this chapter: I wrote the first seven pages in one week, ignored it for three months, struggled futilely with one paragraph for three weeks, and wrote up to what I have now in one day. It's just how it happens.
Put that aside, though. Let's pretend I could write steadily and unaffectedly, just anytime I pleased.
I have other things to do. I'm no bustling social butterfly (if I was, I probably wouldn't be spending my time writing Poh-ker-mon stories,) but, regardless, I still have things to do. I play sports, I participate in Mock Trial and school plays, I work, I do things with my friends. I can't dedicate every waking hour to Persona, even if I wanted to.
Also, there's my mom. She's kinda weird when it comes to computers. She can barely use e-mail, which is as far as her Internet knowledge ever extends; I, on the other hand, could sit happily in front of the computer all day long. To make a long story short, she's not the biggest computer fan in the world. And whenever she sees me typing away productively, whether I'm online or not, she immediately orders me to get up and go read a book. (**sweatdrop**) She must have some sixth sense that detects whenever my butt hits the computer seat, because she always manages to catch me before I can even open the chapter 12 document. It makes working on a completely computer-contained fanfic kinda hard at times. ^_^;;
And there's more to Persona than just the fic. True, you'd think the fic itself would be top priority, but sometimes I'm in the mood to draw, not write. And sometimes I feel like ranting (like now ^_~), and not describing in detail the breathtaking something-or-other of some magical place. I am immensely proud of my website, and I'm constantly working to improve it. So I might draw five new pictures before I even try to start on the chapter. Or something like that.
Oh, and I'm hella lazy, too.
Okay. I'm trying to kick these bad habits, truly I am, but it's tough work. And until I learn better habits, (which may be never,) I guess you'll just have to be patient.
I so sorry. ^_^